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Dec. 6th, 2005 03:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thewingedwordI need a knight in shining armor.
That's been my thought all day, while every person I know proceeded to make an ass of themself in some way or other. When I realized I don't know a single male- and precious few females- that I would consider telling even the shallowest of secrets. It's hard to realize how much you grow away from people in a year, two years, three years... it looks like such a short time, and I never felt that much further away from them; but like continental drift, it adds up and builds up until Pangaea is no more. Or something.
I need someone to protect me, defend me, support me, love me, help me, explain things to me when I'm too frustrated to understand... I think the answer to that problem is supposed to be "a parent", but somehow it isn't. It might also be "a love", but I don't have one of those either, and the prospects are bleak. I feel a shade of regret for that.
I know maybe five people I truly and deeply respect, all of them female, for the simple reason that I don't meet many guys and they are immature and imbecilic more than I care to think about. I wish, beyond all else, that I could meet someone to change that.
That's been my thought all day, while every person I know proceeded to make an ass of themself in some way or other. When I realized I don't know a single male- and precious few females- that I would consider telling even the shallowest of secrets. It's hard to realize how much you grow away from people in a year, two years, three years... it looks like such a short time, and I never felt that much further away from them; but like continental drift, it adds up and builds up until Pangaea is no more. Or something.
I need someone to protect me, defend me, support me, love me, help me, explain things to me when I'm too frustrated to understand... I think the answer to that problem is supposed to be "a parent", but somehow it isn't. It might also be "a love", but I don't have one of those either, and the prospects are bleak. I feel a shade of regret for that.
I know maybe five people I truly and deeply respect, all of them female, for the simple reason that I don't meet many guys and they are immature and imbecilic more than I care to think about. I wish, beyond all else, that I could meet someone to change that.
