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Sep. 20th, 2005 03:06 pmI may have been Hitler in a past life.
Either that, or there's some other reason for me feeling smugly superior when I look at most of the people around me.
No, I'm being purposely confusing. I know what it is, I just don't like to acknowledge it because it doesn't paint a flattering picture of me. But the worst anyone who reads this can do is send me hate e-mail, and you wouldn't be the first.
Enough of that.
I am a very intelligent person. For as long as I can remember I have had no cause to doubt that. Not the 'bright child constantly clashing with authority', no. The last authority I clashed with was a fourth-grade language arts teacher who thought I was 'disruptive' because I finished the classwork in five minutes and didn't have anything to do afterwords. A few years after that incident I got put in an advanced program and happily flourished.
The crux of the matter is that, while I am diligently being schooled and growing more knowledgeable, the majority of the population seems to be shedding brain cells like water from a ducks wings.
What brought this on, you ask? Maybe it was listening to my teacher lecture about atomic theory and Rutherford's experiment- which was absolutely absorbing- and realizing that the person next to you is doodling "I *heart* Mitch" on her notebook. On a more positive note, maybe it was getting full credit on the exam essay I thought I'd bombed. I don't know why, but I carry this feeling of intellectual superiority around like a beauty queen's crown.
Objectively, I know there are many people in the world smarter than I. In reality, the environment I'm in isn't conducive to meeting them. I sort of wish I could meet someone *much* smarter than I am. Not just in one subject- I've met some of those. But someone who is just over my head.
Half the time I feel guilty and half the time I feel justified. Mostly, I'm really interested in black hole theory.
Hey, if you could hear the moronic things people around here say, you might feel the same.
*sighs*
I read slash and watch cartoons! FEAR MY INTELLECT!
Either that, or there's some other reason for me feeling smugly superior when I look at most of the people around me.
No, I'm being purposely confusing. I know what it is, I just don't like to acknowledge it because it doesn't paint a flattering picture of me. But the worst anyone who reads this can do is send me hate e-mail, and you wouldn't be the first.
Enough of that.
I am a very intelligent person. For as long as I can remember I have had no cause to doubt that. Not the 'bright child constantly clashing with authority', no. The last authority I clashed with was a fourth-grade language arts teacher who thought I was 'disruptive' because I finished the classwork in five minutes and didn't have anything to do afterwords. A few years after that incident I got put in an advanced program and happily flourished.
The crux of the matter is that, while I am diligently being schooled and growing more knowledgeable, the majority of the population seems to be shedding brain cells like water from a ducks wings.
What brought this on, you ask? Maybe it was listening to my teacher lecture about atomic theory and Rutherford's experiment- which was absolutely absorbing- and realizing that the person next to you is doodling "I *heart* Mitch" on her notebook. On a more positive note, maybe it was getting full credit on the exam essay I thought I'd bombed. I don't know why, but I carry this feeling of intellectual superiority around like a beauty queen's crown.
Objectively, I know there are many people in the world smarter than I. In reality, the environment I'm in isn't conducive to meeting them. I sort of wish I could meet someone *much* smarter than I am. Not just in one subject- I've met some of those. But someone who is just over my head.
Half the time I feel guilty and half the time I feel justified. Mostly, I'm really interested in black hole theory.
Hey, if you could hear the moronic things people around here say, you might feel the same.
*sighs*
I read slash and watch cartoons! FEAR MY INTELLECT!