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[thewingedword]

My life is seriously like a circus act.

One of my teachers was lecturing about decisions today, and about how making the wrong decisions can mess you up. But my thoughts continued on from there, and I realized that every decision you make limits you in some ways. It's like drawing a margin around yourself, and with every decision they get tighter, until anyone who can see them all will know exactly who you are. It's a very uncomfortable feeling.

Yeah, I try to always make the right decisions, to finish something today instead of waiting until tommorow, of always setting myself onto the most challenging path and always, somehow succeeding...

I'm just afraid that someday I won't. That my life is a tightrope and if I move even a little to the side I'll fall off and never be able to get back up. I'm almost spasmodic, sometimes, so full of nervous energy that my hair practically stands on end.

It's not healthy, but I don't have a choice.

~ Sore, Kit

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[punjabhappy.livejournal.com]

Some people's definition of 'wrong' may be different from others. For example: some people say that homosexuality is wrong, but in my mind it's not. Every decision you make CAN limit you in some ways, but it also can open up new pathways for you to explore. I know I've made some pretty messed up decisions in my life and they narrowed my perspective on some things. But other decisions have shown me knew paths that are waiting for me, and I can't wait to take the journey. Don't hold yourself back from those paths just because someone might think it's 'wrong'. Take care Kit.
-PJ