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[thewingedword]

*sighs*

It doesn't just go away, does it? Not just because you know what it is.

"Okay," I said to myself, "the first step is to friend all the people who you find interesting. That's simple. It's a great way to get to know them better."

"erwellaboutthat" I muttered.

"What now? What could possibly be the problem? I've formed a hypothesis, tested and proved it beyond reasonable doubt, thought of a solution and decided to implement it. There's nothing more to it."

"Well, I'm nervous. I mean, I don't really know these people too well..."

"Well, I'd like to, wouldn't I?

"Yes, but what if they wouldn't? I'm not the most interesting person in the world..."

"I've already been over this! If I can't be interesting, I can be interested, and that's nearly as good. I can't always wait for other people to make the first move."

"But I'm so nervous... I can't do it. I can't!"

"But- but- but then I haven't really solved anything! I'm back almost to square one!"

"I just can't. I'm sorry. I don't have the courage."

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Two steps forward, one step back. At least that leaves me with one step, which is one more than I had before. Such is life.

Comments

[punjabhappy.livejournal.com]

There's only one thing you can ever be perfect at, and that is being yourself. You may not think that you are very interesting, but other people will, trust me. Nite told me once that I should stop trying to 'fit in with the crowd' because I never will. And that is NOT a bad thing. Be happy with your individuality, that's what makes you such a wonderful and unique person. I know it's hard, but don't worry so much about what others think, just be yourself, that's what people are attracted to.

You were one of the first people I told about my 'situation', and I've always appreciated the way you so willingly helped me face it and talk about it. And you've never even met me. Your compassion is definately something that will help you, even if you get critisized for it. People who are compassionate towards others are hard to find these days, and I count myself blessed to have you as my friend. You are the GREATEST! Don't forget it.

-PJ

[kitaloon.livejournal.com]

Oh, PJ. If anything I said helped you at all, I'm so glad... *hugs*

You're a sweet and brave person, and I'm glad to know you.